Surprisingly,
You find me in fb and chat with me..
It has been so long that we chat in fb, and this time you are the one who approach me first.
That night,
I was calm, too calm.
I'm used to cover myself with the calm and mature conversations.
as I still can feel a bit awkward atmosphere between us.
I saw your murmur, which post on the same day afternoon.
you said "Being heartless is the best way to conceal all the feelings"
is this said to her..? or me?
Although you just want to inform me about the Japanese test registration will be expired soon,
which is on 7th April,
but i felt warm because you would find me and chat with me.
I admitted that I still concern about you, anything about you,
after so long.
Maybe I am just the guilty person for you.
I've promised myself, I will let go.
from the day you know the affair, until now,
it's already one years and two months.
We never forget about the feelings that is so hurt, I guess.
Time, could you really manage to fade out all the affairs?
If you do so,
why am I still remember the way he held my hand in the bus?
why am I still remember his anxious face when i fell down?
why am I still remember those hundreds more messages from him every night?
I just want to let all these memories keep in the deep place in my heart.
As I know, he will never be the one who accompany me for the rest of my life.
He deserves a better one, a happy and cheerful person girl who can give him happiness.
I guess, he found her, a girl that can take good care of him.
I am just not the right person for him.
Please, treat yourselves better.
Do not look back and go back, step forward and go on.
